things can get pretty much lonely here. esp during rainy season. somehow, u just have no idea where to go to...just looking out through the windows, drops of rain seem unstoppable. i miss my fav jogging track where i used to go once a week, just to let the mind run and i miss the beach, the wide blue sea. now the waves looks a bit scary with the wind along it.
is it in the rain or just the hormones get in their way that keep on messed up with my head. sometimes, u feel like crying, sometimes it feels so low on the mood that i dont know what to do and who to talk to.
and i just cannot removed this pic of one family that i saw 2 weeks ago. their son passed away after severe head injury in an accident. the father was so lost. he just lost it. i remembered seeing him sitting on the bare floor at the edge of the room. his back slouched forward. he was drinking a can of juice and was staring blankly to nowhere. the family kept on requesting for an operation. something to be done for their beloved. the prob was, the brain was not salvageable. beyond what a human can fix. when my surgeon said no and strictly no to an operation, every single no, kills the hope that they were holding on. the father's eyes got more and more watery, and the crack in his voice.......i just couldn't take it, i went out from the room. let my surgeon and the rest of superiors did the breaking news.
the rain and sadness sometimes intertwined.
it makes u remember all d sad stories. sad feeling.
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| dark clouds outside and inside me |
