Dulu

Dulu ak pernah menaruh minat dlm bidang ong ni. Esp females. Maka, terasa terpanggil utk memenuhi tuntutan tersebut.

But not anymore. It's a big cross, no-no la for me in this field. In fact, bile masuk ong as 1st posting, tetiba ak mcm xnk wat clinical pun ade. ahaha. Drama betul ak ni.

I think ong in term of workload as a ho it's not that much compared to those in medical/paeds or surg. but the envinronment...was...erm....how to say, it's not inspiring. (or is it becoz tmpt ak je ahaha). Kalau jaga ward, am review je. And then, according to cases la perlu review ke x. OT cser can be like air. Nonstop kadang2. Sore satu badan ak jadi tukang rectractor 3 hari berturut2. Pastu, specialist komen..."u know wat, kat kudat, Ho tau yg buat cser, Ho sini retractor pn salah pegang..." I'm not sure what she's trying to imply. Ak perlu bljr wat cser ke? or ak ni lucky duk sini mo yg watkan? Ataupun ak seorg bad rectractor. ahahah. Labour room plak is a very labourous place. Tiring. Full stop.

Anyway, how i conclude this posting - a place where screaming is ur way of communication. ahahaha. Both patients and doctors.

Life as it is

Last 2 days, one baby born out flat - prolonged 2nd stage sbb ayh xnk bg consent neither for vacuum nor cser. Foreigners kan, money issue. I ran like crazy, d baby was so lembik n not breathing. Suddenly i feel like crying, it was so emotional carrying him to d resus bay.

Next day, a pt of advanced ovarian ca. Lungs mets. P/w Massive pleural effusion.  Intubated at ed. Issued for NAR.  Later, family decided to bring her home. I accompanied d pt to d ambulance n extubated her there. With lots of her family member surrounding d ambulance. N d atmosphere there was...yes, grieving.

2 different stages of life, facing emminent deaths.

Reflecting myself that this life here is nothing but a journey for a permanent one. Has to counsel myseft to be strong n resilient for all of this. InsyaAllah...may Allah ease..