Blinded Conformity

At the end of CSI show, they have the ant death spiral scene and Nick explained that ants don't have eyes and they follow the trails with scents. Abnormally (and terribly too), if a loop is created instead, other ants will heed on the scents and thus, a circular mill (made up by antssss) is formed. It could go on by hours and days until they all die of exhaustion or something interrupts the motion. And D.B said, this is a blinded conformity. 

Malay-ly speaking, it is 'ikutan membuta tuli.'

Interesting scene from my fav old series. Hihi.

Too many unthinkable events happen lately, be it national or international. Our political games r getting rougher and dirtier everyday. Reciprocally, it affects the people downwards. The emerge of a new party stirred up the intensity of this battle. and yeah, the breaking up here and there.

Our Gov't is already ke laut looong time ago. They r beyond salvation.

So, now, people are in great confusion, some get so irritated and just shut down from this aspect of life. Some decided to continue the fight. A friend told me, this one has 'imam' as leaders, while this one is lead by professionals. Silently wondering which one is better. The world we r living in now is full of hypocrisy and it is difficult to tell who is better? based on the outer layer of appearance. The betterment depends on whoever has a better conduct.

Information is a click away. Some can be true/untrue/unproven etc...look at it at different angles and perspectives too. One-sided views, u may see the trees but not the jungle (haha apakah analogi ini). Be informed and be critical. The least u can do. And it's not necessary to political views, can be just anything u encountered with.

Quite interesting content...

The only book I bought during KMS d other day...haha

writer of the road to mecca 

NUNJI last month presented by Dr Mujahid Rawa...
the never-ending controversial issues in our country

Yang mane satu?

denied, denied, denied -> asked apology if not saman -> lengthen the time for apology ->
xjd saman bcoz it was true but (spin some stories here) -> if fail, just arrest the informant
storiess of my country =..='

u can be as rajin as semut but don't go do things blindly maaa

A step closer to?

It takes me like forever to properly pusblish a post here. Haha. Pure laziness of me. And i believe this blog will be untouched for the next-nextt years. Hopefully, that does not happen because i like blabbering here. Will be starting Ho-ship soon. All those documents that need to get done, each and everything that needs to have several copies and other misc preparations...New things all over again and truthfully it's lil bit terrifying. hahaha. Terengganu is not too far from here at least. Initially, it was my 1st choice (since my med school actually hahaah). Then, after months of my parents' persistent persuasion, i thot i better off here closer to them and my home. But fate has its own way. Maybe it wants to teach me a lil bit of independency :D. May Allah ease our journey after this....with the so-not-nice stories here and there, tough environment and everything, i hope i can still hold on with the spirit and the reason i embark this urghh tiresome journey in d 1st place. Lol. 

I need to change the above countdown...hihi

Gambar konvo...
Tqqq to baba sbb setia amik gmbr2 during convo n mama meredah panas bagai...
Tgh2 panas pn, ak boleh lagi ade adegan jatuh tngga kat luar dewan, nasib baik bkn ats pentas =.='

I dunno how it happened, but i'm glad we all met n decided to stick to each other...
through thick n thin...

Almost There

Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli...we received the news from SPA that we were offered for HO intake this Dec. Letters are making their ways to our homes. Yet I'm still unsure what to feel. The closer it comes, the more blunted I feel. 

Anyway, I made a mental note to post a few things here. But pure laziness and a heavy sense of procrastination really made my day. I got a chance to attend a few events for the last few months. So much to share and yet I'm stuck either on bed or in front my tv haha. 

Early Sept, I had chance to attend National Unity workshop organised by IDEAS people (was actually replacing my younger brother). You know what, mostly those who attended there were either have political science background or actively involved in that particular field - guess u know where I stood among them; clueless most of the time. hahaha. And it was a workshop, man. WORKSHOP. U supposed to throw out ideas and questioning statements coming from each other. Dude, i was not in the right place. Yet, it was so interesssting that I forgot to take any pictures while I was there. Somehow, that particular event became a platform for me getting to know people of different ideologies. Libertarians, socialist etc...and my facilitator herself is from Seksualiti Merdeka. Surprisingly, including me, there were 3 USIMians. None of them I'd known before actually. 

There's a few points worth of sharing here. Two mains topics discussed were on public policy research and campaign/advocacy. It sounded very technical like sooo way beyond my usual thing. The former topic was on research for issues concerning public policy making. Nothing new, since we also had discussed it in during the good old days at campus. We were then divided into civil society (also known NGO), politicians, businessmen and student group. This way of division was to see how each level of people favour certain interest according to their niches in the community. The theme was on fostering national unity.

I was placed into civil society (like thank God because at least something I was familiar with - i think...). We decided to focus on education part, in which at last, we unanimously believe that our current history subject was very lacking. How? Well, it didn't deliver the message of 'hubbulwaton' and understanding + respect to other races and cultures. Our history is merely factual events and rigid contents with one-sided point of view. My history textbooks were full of highlights ink. Haha. Because I didn't grasp the core of subject instead I memorised it all and regurgitated it back on exam papers next day. I hate it yet I wanted to pass (as nerd as it may sound) - with flying colour. Lol. My nephew who stays in Australia; while he was on vacation here, was telling me a story on WW2. How he hates Japanese soldiers - said they were bad people for attacking the Americans. He said it soooo enthusiastically as if he is an American =.='. (when I was 7 y.o, i'm still in my own world :P). My point here is, some people way of teaching/learning the history is remarkably effective.

Another issue was, the weightage of peninsular vs Borneo history is off balance. The Borneo side of history is somehow marginalised compared to us here. I remembered reading about their fight against British, feeling like they were side dish to our main fight here in peninsular. At the end of our discussion, we recommended that our history syllabus to be govern by independent bodies that are not biased by certain political groups. But will it possible for us to have the uncensored history of our nation that really (really) teach on early cultural relation, our Malay dilemma (should I say ketuanan Melayu?) or other narrative views on the nation's history? That really requires enormous reform in the education system. Lol. Which at this particular moment is...a bit...unreachable?

Other groups were speaking on women's right in the corporate, speech freedom in universities for students and academicians and i could not remember what was the 'politicians' were after for...hahaha

My usual awful handwriting - i volunteered to write most of the time hahaha

                                     

Next, the second half of the day, we had a forum on 'Advocacy & Campaign'. The forum was based on the panelists' experiences in organising and handling their own's. We got different panelist from different NGOsss; Yana Rizal (Projek Dialog), Mandeep Singh (Bersih 2.0), Thilaga Sulathireh (Seksualiti Merdeka) and Abdul Rahman Shah (TFTN). Among the points emphasised by the panelist were proper documentation, to have a niche (either from group u've working already or forming a coalition with other) and I couldn't really recall anything else...hahaha.

So, for the group discussion, we had Thilaga to facilitate us. Her story during the forum was, of course, on her fight for LGBT and how they've become the national threat for that. I shall not discuss on their choices here. But among their fight, I believe, was on basic human rights. If that's so, whatever their choices are, their basic human rights should not be violated.  So, for the advocacy, we made a sequel from our previous presentation; that is to introduce diversity of our historical narrative to the education board. By doing so, it gives the students freedom to choose the book that suits their thoughts (well, i guess at the same time, encourage them being critical and creative). and yeah, creates more challenges (probs as well :P) to the teachers. The idea sounds too idealistic actually.  With the gap between the rural and urban areas as well as the draconian law we have in this country, the idea is a bit overestimate. But it's never too late to think of anything. hihihoo. 

With the group faci - very resourceful and friendly in person

Wow, this is super lengthy post than my usual. Still have a few to write...till i've have the spirit and mood for more lengthy postts hahaaha

Bedtop Ranting : Jobless

i didn't post anything lately because nothing much to be said or blabbered here. i'm still in the transition place of no-longer-a-student-yet-jobless. Based on seniors' experience, we thot we could slot in the september's HO intake. We were wrong. It's full already. Now, we got extra 2 months.  I really want to travel but looking at our current devastating, continuing declining currency rate, it's not a good choice either. haih. so, here i am, looking at this laptop, thinking what should i write. 

there r so much things going on in this country right now. u don't know how to say or begin with. let's just look at our administrating government. everything that happens r beyond intellectual or even logical comprehension. corruptions here are blatantly done. now we're definitely gaining more fame in that area else where. looking back, why muslim countries are always the ones with highest corruption rate...guess the belief and faith are fading away. needless to say, one crime leads to another and vicious cycle just continues in its evilish way. people who r trying to get things right are often threatened and shush-ed away. this country is definitely on verge of political emergency...(or it is already?) 

pic says it all...

Nothing much going on with my personal life. weddings here n there. some of my besties are upgrading one level now. may Allah bless u all. till i got something worthy of blabbering. i'll just post few photos now.

alhamdulillah, complete version of family photo. so nice to have everyone home! :P

Sofiyyah's identity crisis. dress + kopiah... 

'glamourously' (laaaaaaaa sgttt)  known as CBT 

outing with mak buyung...i just realised, most already taken :P