Life as it is

Last 2 days, one baby born out flat - prolonged 2nd stage sbb ayh xnk bg consent neither for vacuum nor cser. Foreigners kan, money issue. I ran like crazy, d baby was so lembik n not breathing. Suddenly i feel like crying, it was so emotional carrying him to d resus bay.

Next day, a pt of advanced ovarian ca. Lungs mets. P/w Massive pleural effusion.  Intubated at ed. Issued for NAR.  Later, family decided to bring her home. I accompanied d pt to d ambulance n extubated her there. With lots of her family member surrounding d ambulance. N d atmosphere there was...yes, grieving.

2 different stages of life, facing emminent deaths.

Reflecting myself that this life here is nothing but a journey for a permanent one. Has to counsel myseft to be strong n resilient for all of this. InsyaAllah...may Allah ease..

Bile housemates adalah mo kt same dept

Hakikatnye ak nak cekik diri ak for putting myself into this weird n ackward situation. Tp not everyone is the same at work n at home. Ahahahahaaha......

Terkial kial mencari rentak

Well byk plak masa nk update hihi

Tgh2 tagging kt ward rase rileks la skit lagi rileks klau mo n specialist yg round tu jenis supporting n bukan hormonal mcm sesetgh ongist ni.

Rate of extend kt sini agk tnggi. Thanks to this particular specialist. Even hod pn xdpt nk argue dgn die. Aduh. Dahle supervisoor ak. Hmmm. Slalu bile everybatch masuk 4-5 je akn dilpaskn. Slbihnye akn di extendkan to 1-2 months. Maka ak dh nmpak future ak kt ong mcm mne. Berzmn la ak duk sini.

Nak kne kejar logbook tagging pastu viva baru offtag. Wpun mcm certain tmpt bleh auto-offtag je after 2 weeks tp ak agree la bile ko kne wat certain requiremnt n viva, at least u r in-chargeable n trust-able. Hihi

Yeah....till i got some free time to mngomel sini. Misssssss home thp gilosss. N dah start bnjir ni huhu...moga2 dipermudahkan semua

Ong neonates

Yeah currently got basic life support aka BLS training...so got few extra min to write stuff here.

2 days living as ho...1st poster tagging ho in ong posting, at labour room exactly...
To put it negatively
Terrible
Horrible and
Miserable....

On a bright side i learn a lot, a very indeed steep learning growth. But this period of learning comes with huge responsibility n complications along the way. Mistakes r unavoidable. Mcm biase klau dah salah or xdpt nk wat pastu kena marah plak for being slow...mmg down. Nak nangis tp nasib baik jenis tahan ayaqq mata kuat. Cari spot privacy skit. Kahkah.

Anyway being a local grad may have help u familiarize with the ward n hosp condition but being student n working r 2 opposite poles. Walaupun dh tau beza sblum ni, but putting urself in the situation baru rasa tinggi langit tu. Ewaah metafora nye ayat.

Worst days r yet to come. Baru taggers 1st poster org xbg expectation yg tinggi. So yeah...

Eceeeh entry as day 3 of life mcm saiko je. InsyaAllah moga ade kekuatan.

Next time till im offtag (with d logbook filling rate ni bile laa bleh nk offtag ahaha)...