just one boring life of a HO

so i'm home for now. just for 2 days. tomorrow got to work again as usual. sometimes, u just lost d energy that u kept u going. that u just want to lay on bed, do perfectly nothing and watch the fan spinning. thinking of nothing at all. hahaha. ok sucks right?

entering 2nd phase of ramadhan. entering ramadhan and leaving it without feeling of refreshing and recharging at all is such an ultimate loss. everyday trying to think, how can i made today better than yesterday. somehow was stuck in that process of thinking. hahaha.

yes, home. seeing my younger brother back. feeling him much shorter that before. or was it my perception has been biased after seeing so much of a tall person. haha. funny.

so, my father and brother was off to prk sg besar. guys in this family r always in high spirit esp in political sense (well, except for my elder brothers). i was always in d middle. unsure of what to do. haha. wondering whether will we ever achieve a mature political environment. my brother said, that y we need a new generation for this. a new frontliner, free from current tight and conventional thinking. ok, u go bro! u guys got my full support from back. haha.

and my other younger brother is currently embarking on his philosophical journey into world of shiah. haha. sebenarnya die tgh tour kat Iran je (u can read his journey notes in his instag). got us worried sometimes... even worrier when his travel guide or host is a girl. ahahahahaahah. gosh, baby bro, dont u dare man!

on the other hand, for me, am only to make a journey note on a bed. just stuck here and there (read : hospital).

anyway, baba said i need to improve my social skill. if not now, later i need too. haha. for an purely introvert (pure la sgt), it needs energy to do so. always dislike social gathering. i'd always prefer smaller group of intimately-known-people. hahaha. okay2, u can pull this off.

and yeah lastly, among the things i learn as a ho is...ho is always at fault. we r just a group of lazy ppl that always unable to properly get things right, manja, somemore lazy again and manja again. hahaha. *sarcastic mode on*
ntah laa....kekadang terfikir, HO ni ape sebenarnye....
i mean, u try to do ur jobs properly, carry ur plan, do work faster, trying to satisfy ur pt and ur superiors and wanting to learn some more. in between that, we r still losers,  bossess not happy and we still maintain brainless. hahaha. where r d loopholess man?!

ntah ape ak merepek ni.

post call and bus.

with aisha and husnaaaaa. among the perks of having beach at the back of hosp. haha