to sleep or not to sleep

OFF DAY during ur ho is way too much precious that at some point u'r not sure what exactly to do with it. should i just qada' all my sleep thirst, or should i go out do something. but the latter is a lil bit disappointing when everyone else is working. n yeah, u dont really have much choices left. haha.

waking up from sleep today finding myself mumbling the words meropenem...vanco bla2..blood tdm ...arrr u just can't escape the hospital. post call day the other day, to suddenly woke up during zuhr, d 1st thing in my mind was..."omg, it's already due for blood dengue pt"...dammit, ape ak mengarut ni bangun2 tido...hahaha.

Once in while, it got u thinking, what sort of life i'm heading or having. What have i done, or what should i've done. Ala2 mid life crisis gitu haha

And the cocktail of tiredness, incompetents and some scolding here and there, can be quite de-spiriting.

My 2nd day in acute stroke ward, i was questioned by my supervisor. Quite basic things. and it's like i know this answer, i've read like gazzilion times during student, yet, nothing comes out (or was i too nervous to even say something to her hahaaha)

And you guess what happen next, kena marah la. duuh...

and then she suddenly said, 'i'm maybe harsh on you, but at least u learn! if u want to do meds, then be under me!"

ahahaha. good luck to myself. mahu gugur jantung ak setiap hari begitu.

well, read it somewhere,

the easiest is not very beneficial. the hardest is very beneficial. the struggle is what makes us stronger and gets closed to Allah. -Syeikh Hamza Yusuf

and lastly, ramadhan kareem y'all. :)

...........I wanted to post my recent pics here, then realising, mostly r pt's detail n nothing much else. hahaha.