Mum

Nk ambik gambar dgn mama.

Me, "mama xpenah nk senyum klau amik gmbr nii. Senyuuuuum plsss.."

Mama, "ok.."

Klik, klik (bunyik camera)

Then, she pulled her face.

Me, "alaaaaa...."

Hehe. Happy mother's day mama! Luv u! <3 

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Semakin lama, semakin pelik. Simple things, yet ppl can be soooo manipulative.

Isu agama, isu perkauman etc walhal, yg dimahukan hanyalah keadilan dan kebajikan rakyat.

Muslim or non-muslim common purpose nya masih sama.

Why can't we all see that?

Kadang-kadang org yg highly educated dgn phd bagai tp common sense agk kurang. Mengeluarkan hujah-hujah yg agk unreasonable.

Sbb at the end, yg penting adalah kefahaman Islam.

Islam is simple. Spreads peace and justice. By right, it should be understood by all. Muslim and non-muslims.

Tp lain cerita nya, haru biru habes org buatnya.

Jd tanggungjawab org yg faham utk memahamkn org lain.

So, kuatkan lg semangat DnT. huuu.

Tarbiyyah diri dan org lain. huhu. Moga Allah kurniakan kekuatan dan terus thabat dlm perjuangan.

One day insyaAllah, it'll change. Janji Allah itu pasti pada pihak yg benar. 

Hati Batu

Bismillah.

My 4th clinical posting, Obstetrics and Gynecology, name glamornye, OnG la. 

Seronok. Ade babies merata-rata. haha. Dan ragam manusia pun macam2. 

Time ni la baru rase, peritnya seorg ibu nak lahirkan anak. Perjuangan antara hidup dan mati. Xterkira sakitnya. Diri sendiri xpernah lg merasa, tp sekadar melihat pun dah rase pedihnya.

Bila patient tanye, "Ni 1st time sy mengandung, xtau mcm mne nak meneran. Betul x sy meneran tadi?"

Gulp. Terdiam jap. Ape nak ckp? Ermm, I'm not even married yet, mengandung apatah lg? Tp professional je la, xkan nak ckp gitu. So, copy paste je ayat-ayat drpd nurse2 sekalian. Hahaha.

Ragam husband pun mcm2. Ade yg super supportive, hehe, alhamdulillah. Ade yg dari awl hingga akhir pandang kabinet je sbb takut nk tgk. Ade yg smpai nk termuntah dan nak pitam bagai. Hehe, baru tau betapa susahnye perempuan nak beranak. 

And i think this posting is a bit emotional for me. Ntah. Sedih segho. Byk babak2 rase nk bergelinangan air mata.

Cthnye, bile mak beranak...tp baby IUD (intrauterine death = meninggal dlm perut lg). Keluar2, lembik, biru and yes, lifeless. Nurse mintak mak confirmkan jantina baby. Lagi mencurah2 laa air mata si ibu tgk baby tu. Bab2 mcm ni rase meruntun jiwa tgk. 

Tp byk jugak happy moments nye. Esp those yang menimang ank 1st. Hehe. Menangis2 daah. Alhamdulillah. Mabruk, rezeki Allah bg. 

And I think I cleaned and wrapped babies more than I conducted d deliveries. Semangat gile, time org nk beranak, pergi cari kain baby siap2, stand by kt sebelah, dgn suction bgai. Hahaha. Baik bljr jd baby nurse gini. 

Ade course-mate ckp, after witnessing all the birth procesess, he will not demand many children from his future wife. Hahahahhaa, ok, sori. Xsengaja nak gelak. 

Hmmm, tp lain plak cite nye from the other gender. Sis Y ckp, "Women are crazy, no matter how painful the experience was, they still want to get pregnant. Hhehe, akk pun rindu nk mengandung lg :)." 

Perempuan walaupun fragile, complicated, skit2 nak nangis, terasa etc...tp Allah kurniakan mereka satu kekuatan, an ultimate strength to endure the birth pain. Melahirkan bakal2 khalifah ke dunia. 

Hoyyeaah, so, appreciate all women around u esp ur mother :)

p.s. Hati batu? haha, xde kaitan dgn isi post pn.  

Updated!

Alhamdulillah. Finally i got to post sumthing after a looong hiatus mode. (well, nak jugak update blog despite of SSM xabes edit lg) huhu.

#1 Int medicine posting and exam

Done internal med posting. MasyaAllah, it's among the best posting (setakat nie). And I love it. It was quite hard in term of the coverage of diseases and everything. But if u want to see the whole picture of medicine, this is THE posting.  Like Dr N said, "Everything is medical unless proven otherwise." Hehe, terbaik quote ni.

During clinical exam, my long case was bilateral lower limbs weaknesses. Whoaha. That was the last thing on my list and on my mind. I didn't study much on that topic kot. But fortunately, that was my seminar topic also, and electrolyte imbalance was d part I was assigned to present. Rezeki Allah is everywhere and during the exam, His guidance was relentless. And my examiner was a super sweet and motherly lecturer. Alhamdulillah, it turned out to be okay. However, the short case was hard as usual la. Since u've only 10 mins to match up the findings and diagnosis. Greater chance to mess up.  Hehe. But what's important is, awk berusaha2 dan tawakkal!

#2 Tajuk SSM

My supervisor was a microbiologist. So, nak xnak kena cari tjuk infection or anything related. Dunno how it happened, the topic turned up to sound like this, "The Burden of Pneumococcal Disease among Older Adults in Malaysia". Maaak aiih, mcm gile nk cari figures and stats kat Malaysia ni. Huhu. Ya Allah, permudahkan laa SSM ni!

#3 Solat and Patient

Let's ask ourselves, how many times after we clerked the patients, we asked them about the solat? Xbyk kali pn kan. Kalau ade yg mmg tabiat mcm tu, Alhamdulillah. Unfortunately, I'm not. Yes, tau, kena reflect diri byk2. Students USIM, bawa nama Islam, so, kena bawa attitude Islam jgak. Kalau x, apa beza mereka dgn kita? errmmm.

Ditakdirkan ada adik2 from MSC dtg interview kt hosp. Projek utk solat katanya. So, nk dpt feedback dari senior (waahh, semangat junior2-ku ni!). So, I brought them along to see d patients (alang2 tu, bleh kasi exposure dunia hosp kt diorg ni). We interviewed a patient. Seorang p.cik. Turned out p.cik tuu mmg xpenah tinggal solat since die masuk hospital. Alhamdulillah. (p.cik tu mmg nmpak alim sbnarnya, tp we'll never know kan, look can be deceiving. hehe.)

Pak cik : Kamu tahu x? Sejak p.cik masuk hospital nie, semua org asyik tanye soalan berkaitan perubatan. Ini kali pertama org remind kan saya ttg solat. Padahal itu yg utama.

Subhanallah, perghh agak tertusuk juga di kalbu bila dgr confession mcm tu drpd p.cik tu. Ya Allah, berikanlah kami kekuatan utk membawa agama-Mu di mata masyarakat!

#4 Plan-Allah-itu-selalunya-yg-terbaik!

Al-Baqarah Ayat 216 :

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.”

Ayat ni sbenarnye sgt famous and among my best penenang hati whenever things dun happen d way I wish it to be. Sy redha and accept everything with open heart. And Allah knows best. Hehe. Selalulah doa utk kita sentiasa kuat utk menerima ujian dia. Eeehh, tp ujian tuu bukan tanda syg dr Dia kan. ecece. :D

Ok, that's all. SSM is waitingggg!!

p.s. Lagu/nasyid? from Wali band - 'Aku Cinta Allah'. Best kot lirik die. Pengacara Amin Idris selalu dendangkan lagu ni at end of his talks etc.